I glance in the rearview mirror and smile.
"I love you too buddy." I keep smiling and think, I am so blessed.
We are almost to the grocery store when the next song on my CD begins. I let the spirit of the song work its way into my heart and start to think about my Savior. My relationship with him has grown tremendously in the last year. I feel closer to him than I ever have. He is my rock and the only one who truly understands me. He can comfort me because he knows exactly what I feel.
All of a sudden, a thought enters my mind and I feel breathless.
I am grateful for my trials.
I am startled at this and think to myself, how could I be grateful?
All at once, this thought builds and my heart and soul spill over with the spirit. A feeling I can't quite explain penetrates every part of my body.
Through my experiences, I have been able to surrender to Jesus Christ in a way that I might not have done. Through these trials, I have gained a love and closeness with my family that I cherish everyday. Through every heart wrenching realization with our baby boy, I've had to turn myself over to Him completely.
It has been the most painful and emotional 3 months of my life.
And I wouldn't trade it.
I was listening to "enduring it well" the other night on the mormon channel and they had a man (I cant remember who now...)with a life long physical (and very painful) disability say that if he could go back he would have chosen the same life because of who it helped him become. I don't know that I could be strong enough to say that about my trials... You are incredible Krista!
ReplyDeleteThat picture is priceless!! you are both so beautiful!! Keep sharing your wonderful testimony
ReplyDeleteI to have had to turn it over to the my Heavenly Father, not quite at the point to to say i am thankful for this trail. Hope to get there some day--sending prayers your way!love Janice